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hey i write somethings and everyone says i’m like the best at writing deep things, i wanted to see if any of you thought the same.
Yes its a lil depressive but i’m a depressed person (no not suicidal that just dumb)The sunlight appears in my room as i sigh and look forward to another day of nothingness. With every step i take the past flashes infront of my eyes, my mother says i’m anti social my friends call me satan lover and the sky says nothing, but shows its affection for me by raining. As the school bell rings everyone rushes to the buses and to their cars looking towards the rest of the day filled with fun and love, with me its the end of the day. Maybe i am anti social, maybe thats why i never do well with love and people. Then why is it that i’m one of the most romantic human beings that many girls claim i am? They all say i’m sweet and romantic but why is it that i’m alone and feel unloved? Walking home i do not look at the many miles i must walk but how i think my life turns out. Everyday I just want to cry. I’m depressed but not sucidal, why is it that i’m one of the deepest form of depresson and not have one urge to kill myself. Why do I need to live? Soo many questions i can think of every question but can not think of one answer, its a shame the non depressive ones can easily get in my face and tell me how much better they are than me. Well what makes them better then me? is it because they dont think as deep as i do and can easily throw life into the wind. They make me sick. They dont need to die but understand that not everyone can be half mined like they are. i’m not complaining, I dont wish to change the world or change others minds, just to tell them how i feel. With no experiancing jealousy is it i’m half complete and thats maybe why i cant relate to most of the earths population? Soo many questions i could build my own world with my questions. Many are afraid and think i’ll kill myself because i’m soo dark. As i sit here crying, its not because of myself its because its what ive become. What happened to me? Why am i soo dark and cold to others? Maybe it is me that i’m scared of, or it could be another moment
Bravo Bravo. Sometimes Depression can lead to a great piece of work. Many depressing movies were famous and well done, while the others were cheap and too cheery for the most of us. Disney is a very good example. I see them as a company that targets 5 year olds and sometimes gets lucky and comes out with good movies. Pirates and Freaky Friday are a example of the ones that they are lucky with. I would say you should cheer up, you seem pretty cool, so why stay sad?
wow… well done… and i can appreciate it, since i’m pretty much the same way most of the time. i’m just not quite that articulate… yeah
“Well what makes them better then me? is it because they dont think as deep as i do and can easily throw life into the wind. They make me sick.” – i love that line
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“Then why is it that i’m one of the most romantic human beings that many girls claim i am? They all say i’m sweet and romantic but why is it that i’m alone and feel unloved?”
*GASP* i got it! he’s my long lost twin brother! it’s gotta be
*blushes* thanx guys, you’re all great really. and for my depression, its because i’m constently deep in thought, like what happens after death, worried about being forgotten in time, and feel like i really need to do something else with life. instead of living life to the fullest, like it kinda seems meaningless to wake up go to work/school come home sleep and pretty much do the samething over and over. I really need a purpose in life i always ask ppl the same question, “what is your reason for living” i mean out of 50 ppl ive asked only 3 ppl had good answers that made any sence. i was hoping the others could at least lie and comfort me and themselves but nope. i did find a goal in life and that is to take my writings (i have 30 but shooting for 50) and send them to a publisher and have them made into a nice lil book one that can cream the “chicken soup for the soul” books.
Quote:quote:Originally posted by LivesNabox*blushes* thanx guys, you’re all great really. and for my depression, its because i’m constently deep in thought, like what happens after death, worried about being forgotten in time, and feel like i really need to do something else with life. instead of living life to the fullest, like it kinda seems meaningless to wake up go to work/school come home sleep and pretty much do the samething over and over. I really need a purpose in life i always ask ppl the same question, “what is your reason for living” i mean out of 50 ppl ive asked only 3 ppl had good answers that made any sence. i was hoping the others could at least lie and comfort me and themselves but nope. i did find a goal in life and that is to take my writings (i have 30 but shooting for 50) and send them to a publisher and have them made into a nice lil book one that can cream the “chicken soup for the soul” books.
Great! That is very good, if you keep on writing like that every day, like in a journal or something, you can develope your writing style and make it very good.
Quote:quote: “my mother says i’m anti social my friends call me satan lover and the sky says nothing, but shows its affection for me by raining.”“Maybe it is me that i’m scared of, or it could be another moment”
I know how you feel…not like but like your walking around with this big hole in your stomach and you just want someone to feel it…to understand the pain…you feel depressed becasue you h ate what humanity has done.
Aslo your not alone in your mothers rantings…at leasts yours probaly never she she didnt love you… i love rain too…its the earths way of crying.
be happy.
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